yourself

Dear Missy,



Today I am home. Its the weekend and I'm thinking about you and missing you.

I am so mad at myself for not thinking about documenting all our ups and downs before so you could see this when you get older and know all about when you were little.

I think I might be making a mistake raising you.

I use the phrase "You're not listening" far too often, so next week when I return to work it would be erased from my vocabulary.

You are far too brilliant and far too strong minded.

You always wanted you own way ever since you were very very little.

I need to find another way to get you to cooperate willingly.

You are very very smart.

We have been practicing our computer skills via a handy manny game on the disney website and you can finally be left alone.

I was very impressed by your progress, we haven't played that long together but you picked it up quickly.

I think you are the most brilliant three year old ever.

I hope to God that He would lead me to create a good work in you.

That you wouldn't be scarred in any way.

You would always feel safe to say anything and never feel afraid that I might be angry with you.

I know you try to "listen"

Perhaps I wasn't too explicit in defining listening so you have the wrong idea.

You poor thing, you always say "I want to listen" when you feel I am loosing my patience.

I am sorry my darling.

I will try to be more patient.

I so want you to be the best you can be.

And I know you can be phenomonal if I could only be more patient.

I will work harder next week and be gentler and more patient.

And you just be yourself.